Half Truths

My boyfriend and I have been through a lot as a couple and as friends. I feel so blessed and lucky that we found each other, and that we are willing to make things work. As a kid I never understood how people could stay at home all day, but sometimes you gotta just stay at home spending time being silly and relaxing. Being able to relax and truly open up takes time, and I’m not 100% there with being comfortable with everything about myself being open to them, but I am getting there. I know it will be soon. We are so close that sometimes I’m amazed that they are a real person and not just my imagination cuz our feelings are really that amazing.

Anonymous asked: Im having trouble letting this guy go. We were friends since high school...but I wanted so badly to be more than that, like that show friendzone but considering his life, I know that can't be. Its hard to just drop someone ya know. But I can't handle being in his life as just a friend. Do you think im wrong for feeling like this?

I don’t think it’s wrong as in unnatural for feeling like that, but your actions are what you could determine as right or wrong. If you only are friends with them for that purpose of being more then it is wrong. If you can’t control yourself and it’s interfering with his life then you’d be a better friend for letting it go. Stop communication, and see where it goes. Really friends are not permanent, especially from high school. Since I’ve been in college I don’t talk to a lot of people that I was friends with; you just lose touch when you move on with your life, which is what I think you should do since you asked this question. I think you’d know the answer more than me. I think you could just pray about it if you believe. God’s promises are big, and he could have a different plan. You don’t need to have that friendship right now if it is an emotional pit.

Can’t sleep..family matters was supposed to come on after the nanny and the freakin Brady bunch came on not in the mood for the bunch lol. Oh well, espn then.

It is late and my babe is snoring. Usually people would be mad at hearing loud snoring or almost breaking their ass from a lifted toilet seat, but oddly I’m happy at the opportunity cuz it means they’re here and with me.

Usually there are a bunch of cat pictures on here, but I seem to be seeing ducks. I hate cats, but ducks are racist, especially the ones in San Antonio on the riverwalk. why can’t tumblr people like better animals?

I hate to be mean, but sometimes these people need to understand they need to get a life of their own. I bet not all those people want to be hit up that often. Don’t people have sense or a little bit of self-respect to move on when they’re not a key factor? Its a good rule to think if this person never hits me up first anymore, but I still try to talk to them more than 3 times a week then I may be annoying. It’s different if they’re you’re best friend, partner, family member, but if it is just a friend then you are putting way too much into it, and you need to calm down and bother that best friend or family member instead.

I am so lucky that I have found love. Luckier to have learned forgiveness and compromise.

This semester I have had success at UNC. Dean’s lisstttttt. Being part of the top of the class in high school and getting your ass kicked at a super hard college is demoralizing. Not near the top of the top, but Dean’s list is acceptable. Great to be back.